Sunday, 30 April, 1865

Quite a pretty day, after a delightful rain last night. We all, except Pigeo and Liv who remained. Bill started ahead of us. Zac went in the carriage with Bake and Nan and myself. – – We have large audiences now. Returned home to dinner.

Saturday, 29 April, 1865

Cool and windy this morning, but a little threatening for rain. Bake and Nannie returned about eleven. Delona brought their carpet bag. – – Sent Bartlett with a double plough and horses to plough for Sallie Hill. I have been sad today. – – Light and shade are alternate with me. I scarcely know why though. I think of Hardie sometimes, what perhaps may have been his fate, but I entertain no fears for his safety, for I believe the Lord will preserve him. – – I can’t help feeling much solicitude about Mary, as I can’t hear from her. I hope though that all is well with her. – – We had a beautiful rain this morning. Hope it will revive the potato plants. Liv and Zac caught 1 doz. shad last night and today tried the herring seine, only caught 22.

Friday, 28 April, 1865

The weather is dry and windy. Planted sugar cane today and commenced ploughing for blackeyed peas. – – Bill and Zac returned about ten o’clk. Zac got his parole, Bill did not. Made some few purchases, a hat a piece for Liv and Zac, a pair of shoes for Zac, coffee pot, tin ladle, oranges, &c. I was sorry he did not have it in his power to go out to see Mary. Did very well with his shad. Bought my peaches back. – – Dellah whitewashed the dining room passage. I finished off some little jobbing I had to do. Washington has been complaining, consequently Liv has floated none for several days. He and Zac are out tonight. Dellah did some little work in the garden and sowed a row of snaps. – – Sent Martha up for Bake and Nannie agreeably to their request, but they were at Mrs. Spillers and didn’t come. I imagine they will be down in the morning.

Thursday, 27 April, 1865

Another fine day. Bake and Nannie, with Tom to carry a bundle, went to Hill’s to spend a day or two with Mary. I am white washing in the dining room. Finished there and went up in the passage and chambers. – – Liv has been busy fixing the bottom in a tub. Succeeded very well I believe. – – He sold a man 9 shad at 1p a piece. – – Parky planted the orchard in peas. Beck is helping to prepare the ground for the ploughs to put in sugar cane, peas, beans, &c.

Wednesday, 26 April, 1865

A lovely day. I am having some white washing done in the dining room. Dellah still weaving on the same piece coarse shirting. Martha spinning, Patsy breaking white wool to mix with the black she broke on Friday. – – Finished planting corn today and commenced breaking up cane ground. – – Frederick opened rows in the orchard for peas. Bill and Zac started to Richmond about 12 o’clk. Carried over some shad in a tumbrel. They both walked, went over to be paroled. I sent over 3 pecks dried peaches to sell. – – Loaned Hill George today to keep several days to do some work. Cornelius came for him.

Tuesday, 25 April, 1865

A beautiful day. Replanted butterbeans. – – Patsy complaining of pain in her ankle and remained in the house. Bettie’s laying off garden walks. – – Pigeo’s complaining and laid down most of the day. Bill went to the White Oak and returned about ½ past 12 and joined Pigeo and I in a cup of coffee.1 – – Mrs. Rhodes came to buy a barrel of corn. I sold it to her. – – Liv floated last night, caught 30 shad. He and Bill caught 63 night before. Commenced planting the quarter cut of corn today. – – Nannie Lewis and Catsby spent the evening. Bake, Pigeo, Nan and Zac walked with them as far as Mrs. Lipscomb’s. Catsby wished to have his fortune told. It was dark when they all returned.

  1. White Oak Landing is on the Mattiponi downstream from Woodbury. It is past Horse Landing, Mantua Ferry, and is just before Scotland Landing.  (back)

Monday, 24 April, 1865

Quite a white frost this morning. Nipped the potatoes right much. – – Had some little work done in the garden by Patsy and Beck, Parky spun. – – Planted early field peas. Dellah wove six yards cloth and had some time for herself afterwards. Salted away some 40 or 50 shad. Have nearly filled two barrels. – – Bill attended court. Concluded to go to Richmond on Wednesday to get salt and take over some shad. – – Gave Jim the day to break up and plant his cornfield.

Sunday, 23 April, 1865

The weather is very cool and dry today. Not so good on my potato plants transplanted on Saturday. – – All attended church today except Liv and Nan, whose day it was to remain home. We called by Ju’s on our return and home to dinner. We drove Shakespeare and Sheridan. Bill rode Grant and Zac, George. We had a large audience, mostly returned soldiers. – – Set two turkeys on 18 eggs a piece.

Saturday, 22 April, 1865

Pleasant weather. Bill’s having the ground prepared for potatoes, peas, watermelons, &c. I altered a jacket for Liv of Zac’s and changed the buttons of two Government shirts for Zac.1 Pigeo prepared a pair of pants for Liv. – – Had 57 shad canned today. Liv made a drift and caught 23 and came in and got his supper. Cleared his seine and went out again with Washington. – – I gave Parky a large shad to clean tonight, the 22. – – Had about 900 potato plants put out this evening. Bill opened the holes and Dellah, Bettie, Martha, Frank and Buck were engaged about transplanting and watering them. Bake, Pigeo and Nan took a hand also. – – Bill left about sunset on Grant.2

  1. Wearing Confederate buttons on clothing after the war drew the ire of the occupying U.S. Army.  (back)
  2. Grant was one of two Yankee horses now at Woodbury. Sheridan is the other. We met Sheridan on the 17th.  (back)

Friday, 21 April, 1865

Showery again today. – – Finished Zac’s pants and had two pair of drawers made by Parky. Patsy broke some black wool today. – – Such a madness comes over me sometimes at the prospect ahead. – – The children are very concerned about it, I fear, and do not take it to heart enough to profit by the past. – – My feelings undergo many changes and I can’t help having fears and presentments, though I struggle against them. – – Liv made a hovel for Pigeo today. – – Bill took a lock off the ice house door from the Mill and put on the barn door. Found another lock had been opened and it would be hard to tell what quantity of corn may have been taken out. – – Bill had intended to send shad to Richmond, but on hearing a deserter’s oath would be administered, or be put in Libby Prison, he would not run the risk with Zac. – – Sold Sally Hill 1 lb. butter @ $.25 in silver. – – Bake moved back to her old room on the river side. – – Mrs. Cobb returned Shakespeare, loaned on Tuesday.

Thursday, 20 April, 1865

Fine growing weather. Ju came down this morning. Report says Washington is burned. The Vice President, Andy Johnson, is killed, Seward lingering from the effects of stabbing, &c, too much to be believed. – – Two gentlemen came this evening who confirm the report and say Baltimore is burned also.- – 200,000 French Troops are said to be landing at New Orleans or Mattamoras. – – Ju wished to get the oxcart to lay rails and to borrow a _?_ but I could do neither, as Bill was not at home and I do not like to interfere with his arrangements. – – Liv had ten bushels corn shelled and took it up to Walkerton Mill to leave for a standing time, and brought the ten bushels meal home carried up yesterday. Zac went with him. Bill has gone down the county to see some gentleman, Jimmie, about the Mill. Patsy spinning today. Beck weeding the sugar cane and Parky ironing. Bettie about walks in the garden and yard. – – Martha a little complaining still. Dellah with a pretty considerable degree of presumption and daring pretends to weave a little. – – I am at work on a pair of pants for Zac. – – Tremendous rain this evening. Came so hastily it filled the culvert. Parky ironed today.

Wednesday, 19 April, 1865

Quite a pretty day. Bill rode to the W. H. after dinner. Returned to supper. Liv took 10 bushels corn to Walkerton Mill with Washington to row the boat. The Mill was taken up so he left and will send up two barrels more and keep a standing turn. – – Martha is better this evening. Parky didn’t finish washing yesterday, but finished and started the clothes today and got dinner. Patsy cleaned the shad we had engaged to go to the market man. He came for them just as she was finishing. – – I have been plastering up some mouse holes and jobbing about various little things today. – – Had my hot bed frames brought in out of the garden by Dellah and put away. – – Liv accidentally broke a pane of the glass out of my chamber window, showing up to surprise Bake when he and Bill returned from a walk. Zac slept till dinner, floated last night. The Col. will be here tomorrow and I want to employ him to his school for the next session. I don’t know anything better I can do for him. – – Gave up my fowls to Pigeo for one fourth today, have only ½ doz. chickens. – – One family of our servants presume a great deal by the recent news. Wish I knew exactly what to do in the matter. We are certainly placed in a very unpleasant situation as regards them. – – Finished planting the corn as far as the land is broken up today. – – Liv and Zac went out this evening and caught 14 shad, sold ½ to those men, I think, this morning.

Tuesday, 18 April, 1865

The weather is cool. Have not finished planting corn yet. – – Martha has been quite sick all day. Gave her Tartar and Calomel tonight. Bill has been away nearly all day. Liv rode to the C. H. and returned to dinner. He and Zac floated this evening. Had the molasses taken in this evening by Jim and Frederick. – – Tom sowed two rows broom corn in the potato square today. Zac took Mary’s Tom and got me some pea sticks. I made a bonnet for myself today and went about a pair of pants for Zac. Pigeo made ginger cakes this evening. – – Nan found my blue Va. cloth dress today. – – President Lincoln was shot dead a few days ago and Seward was fired at in house a day or two ago. It’s very strange I think, if anything is strange nowadays. – – Wrote Mary a short letter tonight to send by Tom in the morning. Hopes he will not be interfered with. Said but very little, was afraid it might be taken from him.

Monday, 17 April, 1865

A lovely day. The soldiers left ½ past ten, the children, Bake, Pigeo and Nannie with Martha, along with them to call on Hal. Nan rode Shakespeare, Pigeo, Sheridan and Bake, Bill’s horse.1 – – The boys walked with the soldiers as they rode out in the direction of Walkerton. Returned and found me in the garden. We cut the asparagus and over the garden. We all came out and they took a snack and went on floating. The rest of the day passed off quietly and pleasantly. Patsy cooked dinner, Uncle Bartlett’s family went visiting. Laid off a piece of ground for Frederick and loaned him a plough. All of his family assisted him in getting off the stocks and preparing for planting corn. The Yankees have set them free, but as yet have done nothing for them. Various rumors are afloat as to what they are going to do. The children returned at twilight. They heard this evening that Lincoln was killed in a Theater in Washington by Booth. A few days since. It’s rather absurd I think, but nothing is strange now. Powerful commanding has been going on all day or rather minute guns have been firing it is said on that occasion. Well, I only hope all’s for the best. Willie Boykin came with the children and took supper and returned home. – – Quite a disturbance took place in the office after we had retired, between Frederick and his wife. Dellah came running to the house for me, and frightened us right much at first. – – Some trading carts came to spend the night and see about getting shad. I let them remain. – – The boys came in to supper, but went out again.

  1. Sheridan was one of the Yankee horses appropriated for use at Woodbury after Sheridan’s troops raided 16 March. The Union cavalry abandoned many worn-out horses in the vicinity of White House after their long, difficult trip from the Shenandoah Valley.  (back)

Sunday, 16 April, 1865

Quite a pretty morning. I rode on horseback to the cow pen before breakfast to see a sorrowful cow. It was a mortifying sight and saddened me for the rest of the day. The little boys, Addison, Scott and Tom, went along with me and carried some corn thinking she would eat some, but she was too far gone. – – After breakfast we got ready and Pigeo and Nan, Zac and myself attended Zion. Bartlett drove the carriage there and Zac drove it back. We called by Ju’s a few moments and returned to dinner. Bake and Bill were waiting for us. – – Two soldiers by the name of Rosco (Rock) Brothers came this afternoon to spend the night. Old acquaintances of Bill’s on their way from our surrendered Army. – – Liv came an hour or two after they did. We were all so overjoyed to see him. Poor fellow came walking home, and I hope to remain as long as I live with us all together. I am expecting Hardie hourly and then we shall all be as happy as circumstances will permit. May we never be separated again.

Saturday, 15 April, 1865

Quite a rainy day. The darkies are employing the day for themselves pretty much. Jim borrowed the seine and floated. Gave him all the shad he caught. – – Bettie twisted some sewing cotton. – – Martha toasted wheat. Dellah got in the pouts and I sent her out. Aunt Becky has employed a seamstress for several days. I walked up there yesterday and sat a while in her house. somehow or other I am sad today. – – Tom came down from Mary’s without her knowledge. I expected a letter and was disappointed on that account. He informed me that Leah had left Mary also. – – We were so sorry to hear it, knowing how much she was attached to her. – – Troubles do not come single handed, but we must have patience, courage, fortitude and resignation and all will be well in the end. The slight affliction may prove for our ultimate good.

Friday 14 April, 1865

A lovely morning, but a slight frost. Bill floated last night, caught 34 shad. Went upstairs to take a nap. Two market carts came through the place and I sent and had him waked. They wished to buy butter, eggs, fowls, fish and anything in the way of eating. I sold them 10 lbs. butter at $.20 pr. pound and Bill sold them some little fodder. – – Planted cucumbers and another row of watermelons by the rutabagas. Martha made the hills and the little chaps are getting peasticks.1 – – Dribbled a row of blk. oats Bartlett gave Pigeo. They are different from any I ever saw. Patsy cleaned the shad and Martha and I canned them. I certainly am attached to them all and a separation from them will cause me pain whenever it takes place, yet I think and hope all will be for the best, guided by a kind and wise providence. I know it will be very hard for us to become accustomed to it for a long time, having been so long inured to their services, but surely under the circumstances we can submit to anything and yield to the yoke imposed upon us.

  1. Peasticks are a cousin of bean poles. The “little chaps” were out in Woodbury’s forest and fields looking for thin shoots and branches that will be woven into a trellis-like support for the pea runners. In the absence of hazel, dogwood, willow, maple, or any flexible and freshly cut shoots would do.  (back)

Thursday, 13 April, 1865

A rainy morning. Notwithstanding, the Col. left for his school about ten. Had a barrel of shad and herring taken up and returned to their place. Sent Ju a barrel of lime by Washington and sent for my potatoes. The boy returned with 1½ bushels, he said. – – Loaned Mrs. Cobb Shakespeare to plough till Saturday evening. Fautleroy came for him.1 – – Bill and Bartlett went floating tonight. – – Washington came for the keys to feed as soon as Bill went out. I sent Pigeo with him, who detected a little piece of skalery in him.2 I certainly warn the children enough against what I believe will be practiced by them before they leave, but they take very little notice of it and profit about as little. – – Washington came in to inquire whether he and his Daddy might go to Richmond on Saturday. I answered him indefinitely. – – Planted ground peas and watermelons today. Martha, the former, and Bill and Zac, the latter. – – Horace Shook left this evening, he came on Tuesday. Brought the news about Lee’s surrender. – – The children are all having their gardens prepared. Buck is the undertaker. Nan’s is in my garden, Bake’s in one corner of the yard, and Pigeo’s in the other.

  1. This would have been Mary Cobb, about 39, wife of Montague Cobb. They had a son Thomas Fauntleroy Cobb, about 21.  (back)
  2. The transcriber rendered the word for Washington’s behavior as skalery. I am not sure what Caroline intended to spell. Readers who would like a shot at deciphering the word click here. But from the context is evident Washington has lost a bit of her trust. UPDATE: Colleague Joanne suggests Caroline is writing the word slatternly. The text certainly could suggest that. Washington’s behavior certainly is being seen by Pigeo in a negative light.  (back)

Wednesday, 12 April, 1865

Fine growing weather. Martha’s preparing a square for ground peas. Bill rode his new horse to the C.H. Various rumors are afloat. – – Pigeo and Nan made me a couple aprons today. – – Finished slacking the barrel of lime. It’s very nice white wash. – – Dellah plants corn with the rest, gets dinner when she comes to attend to Ben. Bake takes him in her room while she is out. – – Col. McLaughlin came this afternoon to spend the night. – – He is ever hopeful. – – But Bill is entirely hopeless. More cut down than I ever knew him to be under any circumstances. – – Had shad salted and filled a quarter cask of fine shad. Bill and Bartlett went floating and caught 13 shad after supper.

Tuesday, 11 April, 1865

Change of programme. Lee and his Army surrendered. I’ll make no comment, but believe as firmly as ever in providence, and believe all’s for the best. I know who is at the helm, and I will put my trust in him for all that is to come. I trust my faith may be sufficiently strong to say with Job, “Though he slay me, yet will I trust him.”1 – – I have been at work in the garden today, though it’s quite wet. Sowed celery seed. – – Made a deposit of 40 pieces valuable articles and ten more in a box, 13 in another box.2 – – On slacking a barrel of lime this evening, found one of the barrels I purchased in Richmond had either become air slacked or was not the right kind of lime. Ju will be very much disappointed as I promised to let him have a barrel. – – Horace came down this evening to bring the news. – – Let all the house servants go out to plant corn today, except Martha, Tom, Frank and Buck. Took little Ben in the house while Dellah was out. He has not been well today. – – Bake had the shad canned the boys caught yesterday, some 75. They caught a few more today. Bartlett and Washington went out tonight and caught ½ doz. Gave them both two. – – Who knows what a day may bring forth?

  1. Job 13:15, JKV. The full passage reads: “Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him: but I will maintain mine own ways before him.”  (back)
  2. Caroline seems to be placing “valuable articles” underground where they might reside safely, i.e.,“burying the silver.”  (back)

Monday, 10 April, 1865

Found it raining when we awoke this morning. – – Bill and Zac went out floating after breakfast and caught some twenty odd shad. How much Zac enjoys home and a short respite from the Army. Poor child came home with a broken down horse and he in tatters and rags, except his jacket and pants. I cut his hair and gave him soap and water and a change of cloths, and I am sure he must feel like a new person. I repaired his jacket and pants, which needed some repairs, and gave him a suit of Bills to put on. Sent Tom to Ju’s for some garden seed and sent him a plate of butter. He wrote a note back by him. Cheering news if true. Rumor says Lee’s giving Grant a tremendous whipping at Amelia C.H. The cannons have been roaring ever since yesterday evening.1 – – Sowed a row of peas.

  1. The roaring cannons Caroline heard were likely fired in celebration. Generals Grant and Lee had signed the terms of surrender of the Army of Northern Virginia at 4 o’clock the previous day at Appomattox.  (back)

Sunday, 9 April, 1865

We got ready and made an early start to church. Were about the first to get there. Cousin Lem preached from 25 chap. Jeremiah and recommended the reading of the first chapters up to 25th. A good number were there. We returned with Mag and Hill to spend the evening with Rose. Mag went in the carriage with us. The dead horses frightened our horses right much. – – O how was my heart rejoice to see my dear child once more alive. Zac came with a broken down horse so unexpectedly. He looking very well. Thank God, may my heart ever swell with gratitude to him for his mercies. He left Lee’s scattered Army on Thursday to come home and recruit his horse, dear child, with his Bible in his pocket. May he ever retain it next to his heart for his continual guide, and I shall be content. The Lord be praised for his goodness. Heard from Hardie, but no particulars from Liv, but I trust in God they are preserved, to him be all the praise. He with us returned to supper. He stopped a while at the tavern to see some of his friends, and came on down to supper. Bill had just gotten home, attended meeting at Colosse. – – We sat around our little table and sung a few hymns.

Saturday, 8 April, 1865

A beautiful day. I went to the barn where Bill was fixing corn planters, ploughs, &c. – – Got Uncle Bartlett to sink a barrel for my white wash in the back yard. – – Had another potato bed made and planted. Bill prepared it. Martha put out the potatoes. – – But we do not plant in hopes now as we used to do. We know not one hour what is to be next. We live in continual suspense, fears and dread, and the horrors of a fearful future, but I sometimes go on my way rejoicing. – – Mag, with Margaret and baby, came to spend the day. We enjoyed as much as such times would permit. She carried Stuart back with her. Martha and Tom went to help carry his things. Sent Mrs. Slaughter some early corn and gave Mag some. She sent me a bottle of yeast by Tom. Bake gave Mag a sun bonnet.

Friday, 7 April, 1865

Fine growing weather. The Lieut. left after breakfast. I wrote a letter to each of the boys, Liv, Hardie and Zac by him. He promised to deliver them if possible. Expects to start for the Army in a day or two. O that my dear children may be preserved alive. I only desire that they may live long enough to become the adopted children of their Father in Heaven. That is my chief prayer, and that come what may I am resigned. – – Bill left when the Lieut. did, went down the County on business. Came back in the night. – – Pigeo attended to Martha’s canning, 41 shad, this evening. – – Martha hoed a piece of a square to sow onion seed and long snaps. – – I have a square of early peas and _?_ up.

Thursday, 6 April, 1865

Fine growing weather, gently rainy. Dellah still at work in the yard. Bake undertook to have a piece of cloth hemmed and put in the loom. Bettie banded threads, coarse cloth for the servants’ shirts, or rather for the colored people. They will not be servants much longer, I imagine. – – But the Lord’s will be done. I will try and content myself with whatever he pleases to permit or inflict. We are told that through much tribulation, we shall enter into the Kingdom of God, and my prayer is daily that I may continue faithful to the end, pressing forward and onward and keeping the prize in view. – – Mrs. Lipscomb came this evening to beg a pittance. I gave her something in a small way. – – Evelyn sent me $200 by Oby for a barrel of corn. – – I am busy myself in the garden as much to kill time as for the expectation of being benefitted from my labor, but the Lord knows best. I will look to him and go on, “Paul may plant and Apollo may water but the increase is of the Lord.” This may apply somewhat.1 – – Lieut. Haw came this evening from Bruington and spent the night. – – We all sat up quite late. The children played and sung a good deal for Lieut. He enjoyed it very much. Bill came in after supper. Been floating all day, i.e., after he had his seine fixed. – – Sowed snaps, brown corn, parsnips, butterbeans, onion seed, &c. Nan planted her onions Ju gave her.

  1. Caroline here paraphrases 1 Corinthians 3:6, a commonly used reference in sermons and religious writings of the day. As a young woman Caroline may have been exposed to the concept through the first issue of Alexander Campbell’s The Millennial Harbinger, No. 1, Vol. 1, page 22 (1830).  (back)

Wednesday, 5 April, 1865

Another pretty day. Bill, with Bartlett, went out floating, caught 35 shad and sold them for $5 in spice and greenbacks. Returned after we retired. Had a serious accident to happen to the seine. Packed a jar of lard and made a deposit of 13 pieces, she and I. – – Grief, at times, takes entire possession of me. – – But when those words are suggested to me I feel rebuked, “Be still and know that I am God.”1 – – My grace is sufficient for thee.2 – – Ju came down this evening. Mrs. Lewis sent me $75 for a bushel of potatoes. Gave it to Ju for 2 bushels fresh potatoes he promised to send down.

  1. Psalm 46:10  (back)
  2. 2 Corinthians 12:9. Caroline seems not have used quotation marks for this second passage.  (back)

Tuesday, 4 April, 1865

Rather an unpropitious morning, but the day proved to be a good one. Bake and Nan walked up to Mrs. Robins’ funeral. Bill thought it would be imprudent to use our horses on the road at this time. Aunt Becky walked up with them. They remained all day. Good many persons were out today. Sad indeed is the news from our fallen city. – – I’ve spent a quiet day at home with the exception of Stuart’s noise occasionally. He has been a sweet child today. – – Dellah has been edging off the walks in the circle. – – Put on a pair of new wristbands on a shirt for Bill, to go away. O, how am I to give up my children so? Give me strength my dear Father and support me under this severe trial. O Lord in whose strength alone I trust, turn not a deaf ear to my prayer. O hear me when I invoke thy aid, prosper the right. Chasten us for our sins, humble our pride, subdue the haughty spirits that would rebel against thee, and help us to bow submissively to thy will, to remember the divine injunction, to be subject to the powers that be. For there is no power but of God, the powers that be are ordained of God. Whosoever resisteth the power resisteth the ordinance of God, and they that resist shall receive to themselves condemnation. Rulers are not a terror to good works, but to evil. Wilt thou then not be afraid of the power? Do that which is good and thou shalt have power of the same, but if thou do that which is evil, be afraid for he beareth not the sword in vain. Wherefore ye must needs be subject not only for wrath, but also for conscience sake. Render therefore to all their dues. – – Owe no man anything but to love one another and that knowing the time that’s now is high time to awake out of sleep, for now is our salvation nearer than when we believed. The night is far spent, the day is at hand. Let us, therefore, cast off the works of darkness and put on the armor of light and make no provision for the flesh to fulfill the lusts thereof. For whether we live or die, we are the Lord’s.1 – – The children, with Beck, returned about twilight. They all dined at Ju’s. Bill came soon after they did and we all retired early.

  1. Beginning at “to remember the divine injunction,” Caroline is copying, paraphrasing, and pointedly omitting, text from Romans 13, JKV. Her sensing of parallels between the relationship between the Roman Empire and the Jews and that of the United States and white southerners is obvious. Caroline could not bring herself to copy “higher powers” in verse 1, choosing to substitute “powers that be.” For her last sentence taken from the King James Version she moves to Romans 14:8.  (back)

Monday, 3 April, 1865

A very beautiful day. Horace walked down after breakfast and spent the day. Bake made herself a bonnet. Pigeo made herself a nice riding skirt, intends riding on horse-back to Dr. Lewis’ this evening. – – Nannie is employing herself reading. Horace most of the time in the yard playing with Stuart. Patsy in the chamber spinning. Martha lathered cotton, had it boiled in the chamber. I washed some little things and Nan ironed them. Ju sent Chasteen down about 12 with a note informing me that Richmond had fallen! Surrendered 6 o’clk. this morning. Lee defeated and gone south. Is it a dream? or are my senses buried in oblivion? Can I realize what I say, or what is the matter with me? Have I gone crazy or what? Surely these things cannot be so. – – Bill came in after dinner, having heard the news from some persons from Richmond. Got something to eat and walked to the C. H. and returned to supper. News confirmed. Took supper and rode back to the C. H. to ascertain further particulars from wounded soldiers and persons leaving the burning city, Richmond has fallen! Woes succeed to woes. O Mary where are you now? O, my children where are you all? Zac, Hardie, Liv. O, I am so wretched. My God! My God! Why hast thou forsaken us? – – Bill returned at 12. Just about that time the bird sung and the roosters crowed. We were sitting waiting for him and hoped it was a token of good news, but none came. We have no alternative on earth. He retired being overcome from loss of sleep. – – Dear child, how we shall all miss him when he is gone. I can’t reflect on our condition. It would be madness. Am I cut off from my children? O our God undertakes our faults for us. We are in a shail, hedged in on every side.1 O, our Father, lift up the light of thy countenance upon us reconciled, and if it be thy will, grant that we may be relieved of these sad afflictions. Make us a way of escape. Thou only art able. In thee we put our trust, on thee we rest our hopes.

  1. SHAIL, v.t. To walk sidewise. [Low and not in use.] From American Dictionary of the English Language, Noah Webster, 1828.  (back)