Tuesday, 4 April, 1865

Rather an unpropitious morning, but the day proved to be a good one. Bake and Nan walked up to Mrs. Robins’ funeral. Bill thought it would be imprudent to use our horses on the road at this time. Aunt Becky walked up with them. They remained all day. Good many persons were out today. Sad indeed is the news from our fallen city. – – I’ve spent a quiet day at home with the exception of Stuart’s noise occasionally. He has been a sweet child today. – – Dellah has been edging off the walks in the circle. – – Put on a pair of new wristbands on a shirt for Bill, to go away. O, how am I to give up my children so? Give me strength my dear Father and support me under this severe trial. O Lord in whose strength alone I trust, turn not a deaf ear to my prayer. O hear me when I invoke thy aid, prosper the right. Chasten us for our sins, humble our pride, subdue the haughty spirits that would rebel against thee, and help us to bow submissively to thy will, to remember the divine injunction, to be subject to the powers that be. For there is no power but of God, the powers that be are ordained of God. Whosoever resisteth the power resisteth the ordinance of God, and they that resist shall receive to themselves condemnation. Rulers are not a terror to good works, but to evil. Wilt thou then not be afraid of the power? Do that which is good and thou shalt have power of the same, but if thou do that which is evil, be afraid for he beareth not the sword in vain. Wherefore ye must needs be subject not only for wrath, but also for conscience sake. Render therefore to all their dues. – – Owe no man anything but to love one another and that knowing the time that’s now is high time to awake out of sleep, for now is our salvation nearer than when we believed. The night is far spent, the day is at hand. Let us, therefore, cast off the works of darkness and put on the armor of light and make no provision for the flesh to fulfill the lusts thereof. For whether we live or die, we are the Lord’s.1Beginning at “to remember the divine injunction,” Caroline is copying, paraphrasing, and pointedly omitting, text from Romans 13, JKV. Her sensing of parallels between the relationship between the Roman Empire and the Jews and that of the United States and white southerners is obvious. Caroline could not bring herself to copy “higher powers” in verse 1, choosing to substitute “powers that be.” For her last sentence taken from the King James Version she moves to Romans 14:8. – – The children, with Beck, returned about twilight. They all dined at Ju’s. Bill came soon after they did and we all retired early.